Monday, March 20, 2017

Thanks For Supporting Our Quest To Get A New Camera

Dear Zombies,
I wanted to thank everyon for their delicious contributes to Cthulhu and my GoFundMe to purchase a new camera. We have been hard at work making terrifying videos to keep you entertained and would love to take our YouTubing to the next level! We are soon to reach our halfway point thanks to the glorious people on the internet such as yourself.
Zombi and Cthulhu

Unboxing The Horror Pack March 2017

Good day comrades. Today, I received my first Horror Pack! Watch as I make a box open. Ta Da! Horror Pack is subscription service that sends you a box of horror movies every month. Personally, I love getting creepy presents every month. Check out the video below and be prepared for the scary!

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #19 Treats and Waiting Lines

Something is going on in my brain. The frequency of my nightmares is growing. Last night I dreamed I was in my office and people were showing up to join the program. I recruit people in my day job. But there were too many, and I had never met many of them. So I asked them to line up and I got my computer set up to take down their contact information. But my computer was being too slow and I was worried that people would walk off. I tried to explain to the line my computer was being slow and asked if everyone could be patient. My worry built. My computer took too long. 

A dream like this is such a simple thing, but incredibly stressful for me. :(

Saturday, March 11, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #18 Veterans Disability Claim Nightmare

Do cats sense distress? I have no clue. Cthulhu always seems more worried about her own needs. Unless I wake up from a nightmare. When I do she is all over me. Obnoxiously affectionate. 

The unfortunate thing about my sleeping pattern is that if I go to bed at a reasonable time my chances of having a nightmare skyrocket. In my dream I had returned home from work to find a letter from the Department of Veteran Affairs about my disability claim. I have been in the process over a year now and expect to find out soon about my claim. I took the letter to the Veteran Service officer, and they informed me that my claim had neither been rejected or accepted. But due to a technicality that they couldn't explain my claim needed to start over from the beginning. 

That is a heart breaking thought. 

Thursday, March 9, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #17 Blogger Cat Surprise!

A rattling behind my computer. A wiggly tail waving from the abyss. A surprise cat head staring at me with hungry bored eyes. Yawing great sighs and swallowing the universe. 

Tuesday, March 7, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #16 - Cardboard Ships and Stormy Seas

Anywhere I lay a box, Cthulhu makes her depths. - There is something glorious about the weekends. Free from demands, stress, and structure I am free to be. Play video games, read, or watch something scary. There is a piece of freedom in isolation and a mask that covers what crawls beneath. There is a yearning in me that oscillates between compulsion for connection and demand for isolation. In either reality, I dream for the opposite. So I percolate between realms and find no home. Wandering and drifting. Depression is like a ghost ship. The inhabitants seek to escape. But a ship is designed to sail. - Cthulhu pays no mind to silly my troubles. Silly human emotions. 

Monday, March 6, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #15 Temping Krinkle Ball

Emerging from behind the couch. Still shaking loose the stench from the depths. A shiny ball temps Cthulhu from the beyond.  Cthulhu has more important licking to do, and pays the ball no mind. 

The Hills Have Eyes (2006) - Terrorism, Masculinity and Totalitarianism

There is an obviousness in which The Hills Have Eyes explores masculinity. Bob, the retired detective, plays the role of father, protector, and bully. Taking shots at Doug’s perceived and actual inferiority. Doug on the other hand recoils and sidebars his retorts to his wife. Accepting, she pleads with Doug to take the high ground. Swallow his pride, keep his mouth shut and avoid confrontation.

The Hills Have Eyes juxtaposes the nuclear family against the radiated family. The Incestuous radioactive mutants living on the outskirts, trapping and scavenging the weary traveler. The mutants present a primal vision of masculinity. Hypersexualized murders commanding and controlling. acting on their power outside the eyes of society. Unbridled and unflinching a club to the head settles power disputes where words fail to capture shifting superiorities.

Friday, March 3, 2017

Unboxing The Horror Block of February 2017

Good day comrades. Today, I received my second HorrorBlock! Watch as I make a box open. Ta Da! HorrorBlock is subscription service that sends you a box of horror stuff every month. Personally, I love getting creepy presents every month. Check out the video below and be prepared for adorable demons and zombies! #Horrorblock

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #15 Painting with Cats is Hard!

I've been more of a black cloud than a person this week. Still holding this weight of dread from earlier in the week. It's as if something holding reality together is crumbling. There is this book called Fear by L Ron Hubbard. Yes, the Scientologist. Fear is an early writing before he started collecting followers. The story follows this guy going about his life. Half way through the book reality shows it's seams. The fabric of ontology becomes fluid. Shifting and rearranging. As if the placement of any given atom or particle was fragile flickering ready to morph or disappear on a whim. 

Earlier tonight I tried painting live on Facebook. I rigged my poor man's tripod to a chair. A couple minutes into the video Cthulhu attacks the tripod and knocked the camera over! Sadly I was not able to upload the video because the music I was listening to was copywritten. So, I recorded a second video! My painting is taking shape!

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #14 DIY Cat Tree

Cthulhu's first cat tree was made from duct tape and a cardboard box. Cthulhu would spring from the floor and jump to the top of her makeshift castle. Surveying her domain and eventually sleeping. But like Godzilla's greatest masters pieces the cardboard box condo was destroyed under the weight of a mighty paw. 

Homeless Cthulhu explored for new sleeping spots. Every surface became her home. But a treasure was found in a nearby alley. A wooden file cabinet!

Monday, February 27, 2017

Halloween II (1981) or The Shape, The Mask and The Pumpkin

Neighber: We have been trick or treated to death! 
Dr. Loomis: You do not even know what death is!
Death is the end. The transformation between existence and nonevidence as the steak knife slides across the throat. Loomis is aware of the cold brutality of the knife. The annoyed suburbanite on the other hand, casually comparing handing out free candy on Halloween to death is out of touch with life.

This juxtaposition is between surface and content, Psychiatrist and suburbanite emerge in the opening credits of Halloween 2. The pumpkin that slowly reveals its innards are more that pumpkin guts. A skull with empty eyes and a transfixed gaze. Hollow holes staring without eyes. Beyond the camera and into the viewer. Am I the target, dying continuously?

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #13 Nightmares and Work

It's 3:28 am. I woke from a nightmare and dehydration. I rarely remember my dream. Often times, when I do I went to bed at an appropriate time and did not go to sleep out of exhaustion. Last night I finished a bottle of wine and went to sleep four hours early than usual.

I have felt this sense of dread for the last couple days. The weight of existence. What good are we as a species? What merit do we bring to this earth?

The nightmare was about work. I arrived at the office with my typical attitude of hoping for the best and expecting the worst. Upon unlocking the door to my office I found that the room had been stripped. All my posters and photos had been removed from the walk and piled on the floor. Inspecting the walls I found they had a new coat of paint that had been poorly applied. There were inconsistencies in the coat of paint. Missing spots, and it was if rather than going up and down with a paint roller each time the paint was applied with a different angle.

Friday, February 24, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #12 Spoiled Cat

If any cat is anti-capitalist, Cthulhu is. Why, you ask? Because she constantly sabotages my desire to spoil her with gifts and toys. Like yesterday, after months of hesitation, I finally purchase her a small cat tree. In stead of enjoying the new play area she becomes infatuated with the box the tree came in!

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #11 New Cardboard Box!

After several months, my order of The Beauty of Horror arrived. Cthulhu was not impressed by the book and made the new cardboard box her outpost. But wait, a fish arrived on the scene, but the fish was too far out of reach for little Cthulhu. :(

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Unboxing the Horror Pack of February 2017

Good day comrades. Today, I received my first Horror Pack! Watch as I make a box open. Ta Da! Horror Pack is subscription service that sends you a box of horror movies every month. Personally, I love getting creepy presents every month. Check out the video below and be prepared for the scary!

Monday, February 20, 2017

Jason X (2001) Or Everything You Wanted to Know About Malcolm X (But Were Afraid to Ask Jason Vorhees)

The motive for Jason Vorhee’s murder spree seems obvious at first. A kid goes camping and while unsupervised drowns. The child’s mother seeks revenge and kills campers one by one. Striking back, the final girl beheads Jason’s mother. Unbeknownst to everyone, Jason or the disembodied spirit of Jason watched as his mother was beheaded.

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #10 PTSD Cat

After snoozing alarm for an hour, I feel asleep. Lost to the darkness, I found myself in a nightmare. Full of dread, I woke up sweating and found Cthulhu calming walking across my chest. Pacing, turning, and finally plopping down to rest on my abdomen. And even though I knew Cthulhu was planning to kill me. The small comforts had a soothing effect. 

Services dogs are all the rave among those with PTSD. While there are training classes, and organizations to get a dog to the point where they can be named a service dog, there are no official certifying bodies. Honestly, the officialness of service dogs is about as official as becoming a minister through a website. I say all this not to bash service dogs, but to make the point that there isn't much to a dog becoming a service dog. This begs the question, why not service cat? 

Cats are hunters. And like many veteran's they are hypervigilant, highly agile and trained to kill. I think it is about time to recognized cats as service animals. 

Philosophizing The Walking Dead S3E16: Welcome to the Tombs and the Violence of Nonviolence

Welcome to our journey into the guts of The Walking Dead. What kind of journey? A philosophical, psychoanalytical and political kind. What I would like to do over the next couple months is dig through the Walking Dead episode by episode to see what it can teach us. Thank you for following me on this journey. I look forward to reading your comments. Be forewarned: There are spoilers everywhere. Don’t forget to check out my previous post in the Philosophizing TWD series: Philosophizing TWD S3E15 This Sorrowful Life | Who Is Morally Superior - Rick Or Merle?

I never liked Andrea. From the start, she represented the senseless do-gooder. The only character positioning herself in the center of needed violence and calling for peace. On the opposite of the spectrum is Milton. The cowardly scientist. Both characters present the same obstacle. Andrea and Milton’s desire to avoid violence results not only in their own demise but escalates the bloodshed between the rival factions.

Friday, February 17, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #9 Photo bomb!

Earlier today, I while Cthulhu was distracted I photobombed her. She didn't know what happened. Out of revenge, she committed and act of blogging terrorism and sat on my computer while I was typing. No greater evil! Does anyone know the correct ceremony to a cat exorcism? I think she is possessed. 

Little Help? I think my cat is sick and I don't know what to do?

Dear Internet,
Earlier this week Cthulhu developed a red spot a little below her ear. I had a hard time getting a good look at it but when I did it looks like a scab. It kinda looks like she has been scratching herself and because some hair is missing. I thought it might be the nails so I trimmed them. I have been treating the wound with Neosporin and cleaning it daily. She is showing signs of being withdrawn. She has been hanging out on my doormat for two days all night. She never I've tried googling but that has been useless. Oh great internet, tell me what to do?

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Open Letter to President Trump - An Offer You Shouldn't Refuse

Open Letter to President Trump,

You represent the worst society has to offer. Not only has the democratic process been destroyed beyond all recognition but you have inspired a hate not seen since Hitler. You've given the country's idiots permission to let lose the full brunt of their bigotry. You've turned back the clock on women, LGBTQ, and human rights. And you did so haphazardly, for the lulz. But I am hopeful, I'd like to think you'd agree, preventing Hitler-like behavior is a good idea. I'd like to make you an offer. But first, let me tell you how you broke my heart today.

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #8 Strange Behavior

Cthulhu is lying on the doormat. She's been there all night. Staring into the dark of the hallway. Trapping me in my apartment and making the path to my kitchen treacherous. Stranger still, yesterday she guarded my closet door for hours. Protecting me from mischievous ghost all night. What turns the cogs in her brain? From what great below churns her hunger?

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Gofundme: Navy Veteran Needs Spiffy Camera For Adorable Cat Videos

Good Day Internet!

You may have noticed a surprising amount of kitty over the last couple months. In 2016, in the middle of hellish personal crisis, and an episode of PTSD I sprung a little critter from the shelter. I named her Cthulhu. She has been a blast and has helped chill my brain out during some difficult times. I am seeking support in purchasing a spiffy video camera. Video content creation has been a blast and one of the best ways I have found to treat my mental health. There is nothing else in my day that makes me smile more than Cthulhu.

You may or may not be aware that I am a Navy Veteran. I served in the military from 2003 to 2007 and the military put me in some difficult situations. And these events are still with me. I rattle with nightmares. I have sudden mood shifts and sink into depressive episodes. I have been in and out of therapy for almost ten years.

Monday, February 13, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #7 Painting With Cthulhu

I was painting earlier today, and suddenly the canvas started rattling. And a paw dashed out trying to steal my paint brush. Not today little fish monster. Not today.

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #6 Lounging

Napping. I was startled awake by a hungry howling Meow from the kitchen. Being as quiet as I could, I opened a can of ground sacrifice and offered the glistening meal to Cthulhu.

Flashback Weekend Chicago 2016 Review: Screw You Neve Cambell!

I went into Flashback Weekend giddy as a zombie cheerleader at homecoming. My giddiness rotted quickly by a serious of events that I should have seen coming. 15 dollars for parking at an event I paid 100+ to attend. Overcrowded and under-entertained I left the convention early. Bored, disgusted and with the feeling that my time would have been spent better on my couch watching movies. Between ruthless consumerism and overpriced merchandise, a couple moments stood out to me.

Below are my experiences with Flashback Weekend 2016.

2 pm – 3 pm

Since moving to Chicago I have been hesitant to attend Flashback Weekend. Flashback Weekend is a long running Horror Movie convention. This is my first convention so I do not know what to expect. On the one hand, I am a horror fan and excited at the idea of surrounding myself with all things creepy. On the other hand, I am also a veteran with PTSD and cringe at the thought of entering crowded spaces full of strangers. This twinge giddiness mixed with fear and hatred of others. The running thoughts castrating the existence of what I perceive to be posers and incumbent parents with toddlers in tow.

Friday, February 10, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #5 Cthuhlu and Me #gooniesneversaydie

Every day convinces me that Cthulhu is adjusting well to possession. The spirits are strong with this one. The power of christ cannot compel her anymore. Cthulhu is becoming. Emerging into transcendental realms. Worlds of where vice conquers, no one is left undefiled and Goonies Never Say Die!

Thursday, February 9, 2017

What Is the Biggest Problem With Horror Today? Answer: Anyone Can Make A Movie.

I love getting fan mail or emails about cool films, events, and ideas. But the emails I don't know what to do with are messages that appear to be Copy & Pasted. I don't like to be spammed. No one does.I know it's hard to get the word out about a new product. But it is important to do your market research. This is not to say that every promo email is lame. Some emails have introduced me to some amazing projects. Unfortunately, not all horror is created equal. Today, I will attempt to unclog Andrew Plunger's latrine. Let's begin with the email.

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #4 From Her Perch

Cthulhu is compelled to reign over the deeps. From her perch, she can view the horizon of her domain. Sleeping - rest assured, that the evil that must be done will be done.

Monday, February 6, 2017

Final Destination (2000-2011) And Columbine: Uses and Abuses of Perspective

What conjures a greater fear? Random violence or deliberate violence? How do we survive? Why would we cling to fabrications when reality spins a different tale?  On the one hand, randomness breaks the pattern of our everyday experience with something that doesn’t quite fit the puzzle. On the other, the rational slaughter can leave us with a gnawing sense of human divergence. The film Final Destination uses rational and irrational violence to disturb the viewer's sense of equilibrium by shifting between reality and a reality invested with death. Similarly, the events of the Columbine Massacre viewed through the lenses of our TV sets intentionally and unintentionally scattered reality forcing the viewer to take sides. How do we make sense of what doesn’t make sense? How do we chart a course through tragedy when competing realities disintegrate our ability to clarify our perspective? This essay seeks to explore how we put the puzzle together when realities compete for truth.

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #3 : Sleeping and Creeping

Cthulhu sleeps all the time. She sleeps on the couch, floor, kitchen table, cat bed and on top of me. I image her dreams like hellraiser with mice. Cthulhu has such sites to show you.

Thursday, February 2, 2017

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #2

Cthulhu primarily has two noticeable moods outside the typical hard to read cat behavior. When I get home, Cthulhu is a cute and cuddlie and seeking attention. Then, her ears perk up and a long pitched yell squeals out of her as she paces towards me for the kill. I call this the IMGOINGTOFUCKYOUUP mode. For example: 

Interview with Remy Dean author of horror novel Final Bough

Tell me about yourself? Why do you write? 

Hello, my name is Remy Dean, I am an author and artist.

I write because I enjoy writing! I seem to be one of the few writers that do not see writing as the ‘noble chore’ – I think that is what Harlan Ellison called it. I used to write professionally, and get paid for it, so I honed my craft in journalism, feature writing, and book commissions. Then I was aware that as I became more successful and became known as a ‘deadline buster’, I was getting asked to write various books that were not really in my area of interest. Mind you, I usually found whatever project I was working on interesting after I got into it. I turned down the biography of the band Suede. At the time I was not really interested in Suede, but the editor kept on at me, so I eventually agreed. I ended up really liking the band and quite liking the book.

Cthulhu - Adorable Cat Moment #1

I am starting a new series of adorable cat moments. Because, why? I have not found a smooth place to insert Cthulhu into Interrogating Ideology. My plan, keep it simple. Showcase adorable Cthulhu moments and update you whatever requires an update.  Eventually, I will create a tab above to catalog Cthulhu posts and provide a brief history of the critter from the deep. My hope is that this scheme will get me back into a habit of writing more frequently and combat some of the symptomology that I have been experiencing. This week is challenging. I am having difficulty sleeping and maintaining focus. My irritability levels are climbing daily.

I dream of the weekend. 

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Ocean Painting Experiments and Art Therapy

I am working on a complex project in art therapy. I started with the idea of build a square of ocean out of plaster casting. In the center of this ocean is a silhouette of destroyer and surrounding the ship is waves crashing in from all sides. Conspiring to destroy. The idea evolved to putting the entire block of ocean and ship inside a box, painting the walls of the box with ocean, placing a red flashing police light inside, and only allowing the viewer to view into the box through binoculars. Additionally, the viewer would also be required to wear headsets playing a recording beginning with ocean noises which gradually become more extreme and filled with screaming. I am considering including the audio from the rape scene in irreversible.

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Cat Bath Challenge?! The Power of the Deep Compels You!

Dear readers, I think it may be time for a kittie exorcism. Based on my limited cat knowledge and googling I’ve learned that bathing a cat a couple times a year may help with my allergies. I understand this is a dangerous and drastic step. I’ll be risking my own life to purify the dander. But I’ve tried all the basic steps. I cleaned. I've combed. I've mopped. I even bought an air purifier. Nothing is working! New strategies are in order. I may have to risk my life and give Cthulhu a bath...

Monday, January 30, 2017

Interview With Anthony J. Stanton Author of Once Bitten Twice Die

 Tell us everything about Once Bitten, Twice Die!

My name is Antony J. Stanton. I am the author of the exciting new bestselling post-apocalyptic gothic horror series, 'The Blood of the Infected'. Book one from the trilogy, "Once Bitten, Twice Die", was released on Amazon in Nov 2015. Book three is due for publication in time for Halloween 2016. I am a long-term fan of dark literature, but I am also keen on realism in literature and film, good story telling and intelligent writing. I believe the audience should not be treated like a fool. If the author takes short-cuts then he is insulting his readers. Hence I came to the genre with a different angle, breathing a new lease of life into it and turning it on its head. It's hard for me to know if I got it right, but results so far seem to suggest that I did. I'll let you be the judge, if you dare.

Unboxing The Horror Block - January 2017

Good day comrades. Today, I received my second HorrorBlock! Watch as I make a box open. Ta Da! HorrorBlock is subscription service that sends you a box of horror stuff every month. Personally, I love getting creepy presents every month. Check out the video below and be prepared for adorable demons and zombies!


Tuesday, January 24, 2017

Cthulhu and Me - Goonies Never Say die

Interview with Dobromir Harrison author of Rachel

Tell me about yourself? Why do you write? 

I'm a horror writer who was born in Bulgaria, grew up in the UK, lived in Japan for 11 years, and recently moved to Northern California. So I've been around!

I've been reading horror stories since I was a teenager, and I've always been drawn to stories from the perspective of monsters. I love to get inside a character's head, and see even the worst person in a sympathetic way. I also love the diversity in fiction, and reading and writing about characters who are very different to myself, a straight white man!

My love of travel and exploring different cultures gives my stories a powerful sense of place, and that's usually where my ideas come from. "Rachel", for example, was all about conveying what it was like to be a foreigner living in Tokyo, and to get across my love of the city and country.

Monday, January 23, 2017

Adventures of Cthulhu: Sleeping Feasts

Cthulhu sleeps like she owns the place. Curled on my bed, couch or kitchen table. Silently, dreaming about eating villagers and clawing to death small children.

I rescued Cthulhu in Oct 2016 in the middle of a very difficult time. My morale at work was in a downswing. Life spiraled into disarray and beg for me to join in the despair. I couldn't focus. I had difficulty reading or watching movies. Sleep only became predictable with medication. I was seeking change.

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Watching Jaws with Cthulhu The Cat

Dun ta
Dun ta
Dun ta, Dun ta, Dun ta

As I write Cthulhu is staring up at me through the crack in my sectional. Inside that little cat, brain lives something larger and more fierce. Deep between this creatures synapses is a semi-cute serial killer. I've learned to watch out when Her ears point up and she paces around my limbs like a hungry shark.

I'm getting to know Cthulhu's moods. All the various shades of REDRUM.

And, yet I still find myself surprised.